Alright. A few days ago I started a rather aggressive reading plan to get through the New Testament in 30 days. I’ve stayed on track thus far. So…I’m getting down on this good word. & I am just amazed at how relevant scripture is to my life.
14 The disciples had forgotten to bring bread, except for one loaf they had with them in the boat. 15 “Be careful,” Jesus warned them. “Watch out for the yeast of the Pharisees and that of Herod.” 16 They discussed this with one another and said, “It is because we have no bread.” 17 Aware of their discussion, Jesus asked them: “Why are you talking about having no bread? Do you still not see or understand? Are your hearts hardened? 18 Do you have eyes but fail to see, and ears but fail to hear? And don’t you remember? 19 When I broke the five loaves for the five thousand, how many basketfuls of pieces did you pick up?” “Twelve,” they replied. 20 “And when I broke the seven loaves for the four thousand, how many basketfuls of pieces did you pick up?” They answered, “Seven.”21 He said to them, “Do you still not understand?” [Mark 8:14-21]
When I first read this position, I just saw Jesus as getting pissed. I just feel like I would be so frustrated if I were Him. He keeps providing for these guys, & every time He turns around, homeboys are doubting Him, yet again. I would get so fed up. But as I thought for a while longer, I remembered that the character of my flesh is MUCH different from Christ’s character. When I read the passage again, with his ability to love perfectly in mind, I had a new perspective of how He might feel. I could be completely wrong on this one, I’m no Biblical Scholar, but I feel like Jesus was probably heartbroken for these men. Heartbroken that their sinful nature causes them to doubt that they will have all they need when He has provided abundantly so man times before.
Reading this passage, their doubt seems so silly to me. But if I were to be honest with myself, don’t I do the same thing? Don’t I constantly doubt God’s ability to provide for my life, even though He has blessed me with all I’ve needed & more thus far?