When opening up to where I left off in When God Writes Your Love Story, I discovered that my next chapter was on singleness. How fitting. As I read, I realized, I didn’t think I really found my identity in my relationship when I was in it. I think I was pretty good at putting the fact that I was a daughter of Christ first. However, now that I am single, I am definitely letting that define myself. Today, I found myself believing the lie that I can’t accomplish the big plans God has for me if I don’t have a spouse. One of my biggest dreams in life, one I consider a God-sized dream, was the most heart breaking to think about. I kept dwelling on the fact that fostering & adopting children is a huge task & is just not feasible for a single woman, even if I do have a steady job. & that may be very true. Time, however, plays a huge role in this. I won’t be able to pursue that dream until much later in life, & who knows, maybe by then I will have a spouse to join me on this amazing journey. I don’t know what is going to happen.
Here is what I do know. I am alive today. I am a Daughter of the King. I am only 20 years old. I happen to be single. God willing, I have a lot of life left in me. I have big dreams. & I am capable. I have nothing holding me back from serving the Lord with every fiber of my being. & God is giving me a much more clear picture of what that might look like for me.
If God is preparing you to make an impact on this world for His kingdom, chances are He will take you through a season of solitude. This is a season when you learn that you can’t lean upon anyone but him for your confidence & when you gain the strength to stand alone even when no one else stands with you. [Leslie Ludy, When God Writes Your Love Story]
This passage in the book really impacted me. It just got me really pumped up actually. I have the power in me to do some big things. & there is no need to put them off until I’m married. Shoot, there is no need to put them off until I graduate. I should get started now! Forget this apathetic attitude. I’m over it! Time to let go & let God. & I am so excited to see what kind of crazy adventures He will be taking me on.