So many people I have talked to wanted to know my mindset going into The One Dress Project. When I first started thinking about doing the project, I immediately started praying about it. Eventually, I felt like I was being given more and more of a desire to take action. My next step was talking to those around me. That came with mixed reactions. Some of my loved ones were really excited about the idea of this. & others had some concerns. Some still have concerns. Please take comfort in the fact that I wrestled with all of those same concerns:
People are going to think I am a weirdo. When faced with this concern, it just came down to asking myself “Am I really going to let what people might think of me hold me back from doing things I am passionate about for the rest of my life? What would be the right way to raise my self-esteem? By making lots of so-called friends that wouldn’t accept my quirky personality and support my crazy adventures? Or doing something to fight a terrible injustice?”
This is my senior year! Is this really the way I want to be remembered by my classmates? This is my senior year! This is the perfect season in my life to do this! I don’t have a job that I need to look “professional” for everyday. As a matter of fact, I have a job that encourages stepping out and doing something to make some sort of difference. I have my youth on my side. If someone thinks I’m a weirdo, chances are I won’t see them after graduation anyway! & what a way to finish off a college career that looks nothing like I thought it would when I started it 4 years ago. By doing something that I never would have imagined doing.
What man will want to date a girl who is wearing the same dress all the time? I debated including this in my entry, but this was honestly one of the most common & most urgent concerns of quite a few people. I am a quirky, weird person. If a man wants to date me, he is going to have to get used to it. & if a man cannot respect me for doing something that I think is truly fighting for justice for a people group that needs advocates to fight for them, then I don’t think he’s the man for me anyway! I want my man to have a heart for justice & a spine to act on it!
Won’t I get smelly? Let’s clear something up right now, my friends. The dress gets washed. The dress gets washed often. Also, I DO NOT SLEEP OR WORK OUT IN THE DRESS! I sleep in pajamas & I work out in work out clothes.
Won’t the dress get beat up? Yes. It will. Lucky for me, I live with the Spartan Seamstress. & when talking about this concern with one of my beautiful sisters in Christ [who took part in The One Dress Project last year,] she reminded me that some of these women and children in the trafficking industry probably only have 1 dress. Their dress is probably tattered and torn too & mine will not even compare to the pain that their dress has been through.
What will I get out of this? This is a very real question. I definitely have a lot of personal goals & ways I hope to grow throughout the journey of The One Dress Project. Of course, I have my personal financial goal that I would like to reach in donations the The Daughter Project. But in addition to that, I’m hoping that the Lord teaches me follow through and self discipline in the next 6 months. Let’s face it, I’ve made a very public commitment, & there is no backing out now. I also hope that the Lord reveals to me any places I may be dangerously be placing my worth. Maybe I find my worth in what people think of me. Maybe I find it in the world’s image of “beauty.” Maybe I’m not even sure of my worth. Do I know the true source of beauty? Who knows? I sure don’t…..yet, but I’m sure I will get to a point of exposure at some point in this journey.
Let’s me real, people. I am just about at awful as taking pictures of my outfits as I am at blogging on a regular basis. These are a few of the outfits I’ve had along this journey so far! Also, today was the day that I took the step of faith & made a bulletin board for my floor formally informing my residents of The One Dress Project. I’m not going to lie, I have anxiety over it. But I know that Abba will comfort me in this time, & protect me from any harm. He’s REAL good at that!