Not for a Moment

 

I heard this song for the first time at a conference in Indy last year.  It still brings me to tears from an overwhelming sense of security and love.

My Most Common Prayer

Sometimes, it’s hard to believe.  When you’ve been removed from a strong community and you are feeling like you are on your own in this whole walking with the Lord thing, I just feel like day after day I stand questioning everything.  I don’t think questions are bad, though.  I think you take the good with the bad.  But at the end of every day, I find myself laying in bed, and praying these lyrics over and over again.  This song sings the loudest cries of my heart right now.

Day 170something? [Lost in the Chaos]

I’m terrified.  I’m getting ready to graduate in 52 days & then I have to officially shed the title of a full-time student & acquire the one of a full-time worker.

  • Some things that excite me:
  • Moving back in with my parents.
  • Having a dog again.
  • Not having homework.
  • Being able to read a book for leisure & not feel guilty about not reading for class.
  • Seeing my brother & sister on a daily basis.
  • Having a big girl paycheck & being able to support some of my friends going into ministry.
  • Becoming an official member of a church.
  • Getting baptized.
  • Finding a way to serve in Detroit.
  • Making new friends.
  • Getting to park my car 20 feet from my house.
  • Not having to pay to do laundry.
  • Being able to cook my own food instead of eating in the caf.
  • Having more spare time to do the things I’m passionate about.
  • Having a bathtub [PRAISE THE LORD!!!]
  • Some things I am dreading:
  • Moving away from the friends that I’ve lived life with for 4 years.
  • Trying to fit the mold of what used to be when I am a different person from who used to live life in my hometown.
  • Not finding a fruitful community.
  • Becoming complacent.
  • Falling flat on my face.
  • Disappointing the people I love the most.

But I guess when it comes down to it, no matter what my fears are, I have to graduate.  I have to start working.  & I have to be a grown up FOR REAL.  I will let you know how it goes.